BbHaOz on Tuesday, April 26, 2005
The ball came boucing ... erm.. gotten to chest it down...jzu at tat moment i chest it down, i had landed wrongly with my leg ...heard a loud crack in it den i can feel my bone been rubbed against each other ...so painful sia... almost in tears ... cant moved my foot ...feeling so miserable inside my hearts ...*why am i so careless?
now i'm struggling with my walking....dun wanna to take leave for tomolo de ...my sis n mom was there nagging at me n scolding me....cos i wanna to have a clean record...who knows ...another few more days i can complete the whole month...now i had to take leave...blaming myself now...so stupid....d*** it ...
can see blood inside the skin...tomolo gotten see doc den take X-ray as precaution ...wish me well ya... will ya? i cant walk properly ....sad...
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Mx asked me to be his assistant for his bday...yeah thrice ! i will be doing tat...hoped can be a success...qh sms me back..saying tat she will not be going ...y she like tat...i ask her...if in a few yr time..we going to held gathering..will u come? her reply left me with nth to say...are we tat loadthsome to her...why she cant face us? say tat if we are fated...we will meet her ...wht an excuse ... dun tell me she was unhappi during her sec sch days? rejected my invitation twice le..ok..i'll let fate decide den...
izzit true tat most Top student will not meet up with the rest once their education end and tat's full-stop to friendship...i'm trying hard to prevent tat..but there are some who are like tat...
mf ask me how am i going to celebrate my 21st bday... i juz told her peace!... silent peace...felt so sad each time pplz celebrate..but the saddness will be gone once i see him so happi and help in the set up...hope tat pplz can understand my situation...tired of repeating ...but i juz cant escape frm my relative side...cos my cousin same bday as me...hated when they sang happi birthday...hated the cakes...hated all the thingy...hated myself ... nv had a cake (cant) ... no bday song for me (cant) ...present ? ya ...
*juz wanna to tell u all..i'll be happi to see u al happi ... smile will ya?
*5th 6th 7th MAY i'm occupied with sec sch friend 21st bday ...i'm drained...*am i tiring myself to cover my mood? maybe ... i tired nvm ...juz wan to see u SmiLE :-)
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