BbHaOz on Saturday, June 11, 2005
Shag..my head is spinning and i am sweating...walk frm Punggol Park to somewhere around Japanese Cementery...ya..somewhere near to my house ....
Men's nite today...out of 9 pplz ..i think 8 pplz drunk le ba ..haa...i'm included too ya..cos tat stupid jm pour so much whiskey into my cup ... started feeling giddy and tried to stop drinking and change to coke ...wow sia... can tat be considered as my first time in a pub? or rather an outdoor pub.... ah is going to NS tomolo...somehow we going to miss him... went to have a drink..which i seldom go...cos tonite is special that why i am going...spent aound $20 per person...tried to drunk ah as he is entering NS but somehow the drunk one is those trying to drunk him...especially av...he was so drunk tat he call his ex again...history repeated again...toking craps and blah blah blah ... ah was too drunk ba...broke the news tat he break with his 2 week gf juz becos he is entering NS ... can gals really wait for their man when in NS? to lessen the pain while in NS, he choose to break with her ...OMG!!! ...
i was amazed by ex manager tat he still r'ber my name...think he wanna me to help him ba..cos familiar faces are easier to work together..but i long time never work as banquet le ...frm the way he call and r'ber my name to pronoucing my name, i had the urge to work for him again...the bond..the laughter..there is enjoyment during works cos we are under the same roof again...*missed those time when all sec sch friends work at the same function room...i really missed tat...sob!!!
as we about to go off...ah vomited...and av was drunk...think yh n mel too ya...i look really red in the mirror...
av seem to have the most problems in his love life ... so too was hong and mel ...love life was the topic as we walked to the Jap Cememtry for a rest...*silly rite..so far sia..but we somehow enjoyed the process...frm there nv knew tat yh was such a hardcore pub person tat i knew frm pri sch ..told me all about his stuff...*not going to say it here as they are drunk and i chanced upon it...frm their problems, i cant helped them or give any give advices as i got no experience myself...so i cant judge but onli to lent u all my ears ...frm it i must tell myself to give all the care and protect the one. nv to let her get hurt or worried her for whtever thing i do...wht i need is juz a warmth home to be at when after work, a supportive person ...not to follow wht my father had done but to improved on it as an example...i knew tat tat will be hard..juz saying and no action done...dun wanna to regret juz like in pri n sec sch days...i wanna to change!!!
told some1 b4 tat im juz not good enough ... hai...think wht i lack is the courage , guts and confidence in myself ...juz a useless person lar...even i sometime admired fj's guts ....
with so many problems been heard...how about my? i too was troubled but the drinks nv really drunk me out ... i juz feel relaxed and sleepy...
been a friend is the best solution as friends is forever while a relationship is not...only thru sheer determination and hardwork den the relationship will blossom...* will u guys stopped making me worried? really hope tat u all are well and happi ...after their side...think i decided to be single till my NS is over den but tat time..my uncles..aunties...parents will pressurize me...den to solve the problem..a vietnamese wife will solve all..haa..but tat troublesome too ya ... OMG ..where to find some1 who will nv make me worried, supportive, fillial, a great cook ? think in s'pore rarely ba ...will be snatch away by the better ones...i'm juz a fool ...
*mizzed sec sch days
**confused..go or not to go ...
***orange yellow ... cool blue ... snow white ... baby yellow ( colour of my future house )
*rest le ya...i;m drunk ya....
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